May 2013
I’m sorry I’m not good enough. I tried really hard and I failed. I’ve pushed everyone away. I’m not anyone’s first choice anymore. Not sure I ever was. I kinda hate myself. And realizing that is one of the most painful things to do with. I’m glad it’s almost summer because then i can stop pretending for everyone at school. I just need a break.
I will wear what I want.
I will get tattoos if I want.
I will wear makeup if I want.
I will dye my hair if I want.
I will pierce whatever I want.
I will shave what I want.
I will lose weight if I want.
I will gain weight if I want.
I will have sex if I want.
french:
I need sex asap
if you start kissing my neck there’s a 169% chance i’m going to rip your clothes off
I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
But when I see a mother with her child;
A girl with her lover;
Or a friend laughing with their best friend;
I realize that even though I like being alone
I don’t fancy being lonely.
zooeyclairedeschahell:
“cool jeans,” i tell a cute boy
little did he know that i actually talking about his genes because those chromosomes have combined beautifully ay papi
I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone’s favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I’m special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.
quazza:
i am reminded that english is a flawed language every time I am forced to use “that that” in a sentence
fffcuk:
never like a boy you’ll end up either hating them or hating yourself
